It's a blessing
You'll find my next few entries fairly bizarre. It will be like memento. I'll be back tracing back to the original story.
Lets drop a few names. The current girl is 'Aisha' and the amazing prospect was 'Husna'.
I've been trying really hard with the current potentional, Aisha. She has some really exceptional circumstances that I can't even begin to explain.
I always find that whenever I'm in a difficult position. I submit to Allah and seek his help and wisdom. I recently did istikharaa regarding this girl as we needed to come to some kind of decision of where we stood.
When I did istikhara nothing happened. At Fajr I begged Allah to send me a sign. In my dream. I didn't see her. I saw an old friend. I was laughing and playing in the park. I also saw 'An Amazing Prospect She Was' (Husna). She had this smile. The shy kind.
I realise that these could just be feelings that I've had. With the information that I'm presented with; I must take action.
I would never give up on anyone. I will always give them the rights and respect that they're due regardless of their nature or past. However this situation has really ran its course and I know what I must do.
1) Honesty is the best policy. I have to tell Aisha about everything. All the difficulties we've encountered are way beyond us. We've both tried so hard but we're not seeing a connection that we want. Its come to the realisation that we're both decent people but not for each other.
2) Once #1 has been accomplished. I must attempt to get in touch with Husna. Tell her about what has happened. Lay all my cards out on the table. Give it one last shot. Sometimes we've gotta do what we can for the things that we believe in.
Best case scenario: Husna is willing to try again. Worst case scenario: Nothing happens.
What does that do for me? It closes both chapters; just in time for the summer :-)