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Tuesday 9 November 2010

A Glimpse Of What's To Come



Dark, dull rainy days. I never liked them. Ever since I was a child. Mum would always force us to go school if we wanted to get somewhere in life.

I always thought to myself I would be like my friends whilst growing up. At 10 years old you tend to think success is based around having a fast car and being able to buy anything you want. I was going to be successful without selling drugs or doing 'bad things' to get there.

When I took that route at a young age, I found that I wasn't with the same friends. I lost nearly all of them. I was always the most popular boy at school. So it was always quite difficult to find that 'balance'.

At home it wasn't much different. My mum was the only other family member that prayed. We wasn't given that luxury of a great upbringing. Father would work several jobs to ensure we lived comfortably. And alhamdulillah - we did. However, we were just thrown into mosque and taught a very negative Islam. My friends would regularly miss mosque to go and drive stolen cars or meet up with girls.

I went through a lot of difficult phases in my (short) life. I grew up in the ghetto. Where the chances of survival by being good were virtually non-existent. The 'religious' folks were a bunch of hypocritical nutters. I used to ask myself why are Muslims are so unfair? At times I found non Muslims more accepting than some Muslims. Something was obviously wrong.

Since then I've been out to set the record straight. Present. I came back to asking myself a similar questions.  This time more serious.

What am I doing with myself? What do I really want in life? How will I achieve it?

I don't want to be amongst these dysfunctional people. I've witnessed a lot in my very short years. I've met some very amazing Muslims. On the contrary, I've met many scary ones.


Islam came as a mercy to mankind. As a guidance. We're responsible and accountable for this responsibility.

So here is what I've doing. I moved back in life. Re-assessed everything. My family. My friends. My belief (deen). I feel I found my deen last time I took a step back but I can only reaffirm my beliefs. It's the reason why I've been off the blogging scene for a while too. I stopped spending a lot of time with friends too. In order to seek answers. I sought seclusion. And it worked.

I am setting out to seek happiness and understanding. Because the world belongs to the energetic. Energy and persistence conquer all things. The real difference between people is energy and understanding. A strong will, a settled purpose, an invincible determination, can accomplish almost anything; and in this lies the distinction between great people and little people. If you ever want something just . . don't give up. Fight for it.

A man must find happiness through understanding and possess a fine amount of self-esteem.

A woman is an integral part of this because for we (men), were once dependant upon a woman to raise us.

Somewhere along the line I fell down. I am standing back up. If anyone intends on becoming an obstacle. Good luck in that. NO ONE is bringing me down. I am out to seek answers.

Watch me do just that.

Ladies and Gentlemen. Boys and Girls. Brothers and Sisters.

SoulSeek is back with a mighty fine smile on his face. Oooo what's that? The dimples are back too!

;o)

7 comments:

  1. The sad truth is that your 100% right. There are many Muslims that negatively affect the image of Islam through ignorance and misguidance. (and they leave a bad impression on both Muslims and mon-muslims) As the next generation it is our duty to show that Muslims are open minded, educated global citizens.
    Your positive attitude is just what this ummah needs :)
    Asalamu Alaikum

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  2. Assalaam Alaikum brother Soul Seek,

    It seems going for Umrah in Ramadan did you a great deal of good! MashaAllah. Glad to see you back. =)

    I am in complete agreement with you. Rather than letting setbacks and obstacles defeat us, we should strive ever more to prove all those who may not believe in us, or give a negative name to our beautiful deen, wrong. It is our utmost duty as Muslims to persevere yet exhibit patience in times of difficulty. May Allah (SWT) guide & help us all become the best we can be (Ameen).

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  3. Good for you!! Yes sometimes we need time to re-evaluate the important things in life.

    Don't let anything stop you

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  4. "SoulSeek is back with a mighty fine smile on his face. Oooo what's that? The dimples are back too!" <-- cracked me up!!

    but on a serious note...I think we all should reassess our life regularly and pinpoint where we are makign mistakes and then to go on and correct those mistakes in order to become better muslims.

    Looking forward to your next post!

    AND Eid mubarak in advance to everyone!

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  5. When I read this post, it makes me smile. Not because of everything that you've had to see, or the struggles that have been undertaken, but because at the end of it all, there's a smile. :)

    Salaam

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  6. So many things I agree with.
    "The 'religious' folks were a bunch of hypocritical nutters. I used to ask myself why are Muslims are so unfair? At times I found non Muslims more accepting than some Muslims. Something was obviously wrong."
    I can't believe how judgemental Muslims can be at times. So much for 70 excuses, forgiveness, kindness, humility, etc etc. I almost made a post on this. Then I decided against writing about such people.

    "I've been off the blogging scene for a while too. I stopped spending a lot of time with friends too. In order to seek answers. I sought seclusion."
    Same phase, similar timing, very different reasons. I stopped keeping in touch with so many people. I still find it hard to discuss the thing that was distressing me with people who I am/was close to. Khair, its best to divert your attention to other things in order to recover.

    Awesome job at adding the dimples in the end. Make sure to work that into your marriage resume. :P

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