Saturday, 28 December 2013

It's Time To Stop

For as long as I can remember I've had this problem with savouring an opportunity, an experience and a moment. The problem is before that process begins. I call it perfecting procrastination.

It works like this. I have a written rule about zero days. Zero days are days where that I don't progress, develop, learn or better myself in one way another. Even if it's just a mere 10 press ups. Slow progress is still progress. I'm not allowed a zero day, despite the circumstances. My perspective and the way I look at the world changes as my understanding progresses.

My problem is that I will stop an area of development based on "Why benefit now when you can benefit more in the future".

More is the reason of unhappiness.
More is why I cannot reach new heights.
More is why I procrastinate.
More is the killer.

It's hindering me and I realise it's a problem. It's problem because I have a constant need for perfecting myself. The very idea in itself is paradoxical.

I have more books than I can accommodate. There's one particular book I've procrastinated for 13 years years since I was 12. I've wanted my mind to be at a particular stage of development before I started this journey. I stand here and I say no more.

It's Saturday and I'm starting with the sealed nectar, the biography of Muhammed (saw). After this I have 58 books to work through. You can follow my progress over at:

I also have a box of vintage and rare chocolate from Hotel Chocolat to work through. I kid you not. This stuff is the crack of Chocolates. 

Procrastination. No more. I'm taking control. 


  1. Salam SoulSeek,

    I just recently discovered your blog and spent days catching up on all your posts over the years. I find your blog to be very inspiring and I have taken much of what you say under advisement in my own life :) You're some years younger than me, but I can absolutely say that you are mature and wise beyond your years, mashAllah.

    I was disappointed when I got caught up on your blog and realised that your posts tapered off, as I selfishly felt sad that I would no longer benefit from your insightful and honest reflections. Imagine my delight when I discovered you added a new post :) I just had to let you know that your blog is helpful to a lot of us, so please do write as often as you have time for...

    And by the way, there is a known relationship in the psychological research between procrastination and perfectionism, so it really doesn't surprise me that you've been dealing with that problem yourself.

    Hope you had a productive read and a productive session of working your way through those chocolates.


    Green Tea

    1. Walaikum Salaam Warahmatullah,

      This means a great deal to me. Thank you for taking your time to share your thoughts.

  2. I second that!

    Glad to see you on here again Soul Seek. :) Am I to assume we shall see you again in six months? lol i kidd.

    Hope you are well.


  3. Jazakallah Khayr. The breaks are generally an indicator of what's going on.

  4. Salam...first time reading your blogs I found it inspired me a bit..and make me want to explore your blog more( anyway I dont finish reading your blog yet but I will)..

    So keep updating because im sure theres a lot readers waiting for your new updates
    Maybe there were not commenting as there were silent readers..

    Anyway, where are you from?... Im from malaysia..keep updating ok..:-D

    1. Walaikum Salaam,

      Welcome and I'm from the UK :)