For as long as I can remember I've had this problem with savouring an opportunity, an experience and a moment. The problem is before that process begins. I call it perfecting procrastination.
It works like this. I have a written rule about zero days. Zero days are days where that I don't progress, develop, learn or better myself in one way another. Even if it's just a mere 10 press ups. Slow progress is still progress. I'm not allowed a zero day, despite the circumstances. My perspective and the way I look at the world changes as my understanding progresses.
My problem is that I will stop an area of development based on "Why benefit now when you can benefit more in the future".
More is the reason of unhappiness.
More is why I cannot reach new heights.
More is why I procrastinate.
More is the killer.
It's hindering me and I realise it's a problem. It's problem because I have a constant need for perfecting myself. The very idea in itself is paradoxical.
I have more books than I can accommodate. There's one particular book I've procrastinated for 13 years years since I was 12. I've wanted my mind to be at a particular stage of development before I started this journey. I stand here and I say no more.
Procrastination. No more. I'm taking control.
It works like this. I have a written rule about zero days. Zero days are days where that I don't progress, develop, learn or better myself in one way another. Even if it's just a mere 10 press ups. Slow progress is still progress. I'm not allowed a zero day, despite the circumstances. My perspective and the way I look at the world changes as my understanding progresses.
My problem is that I will stop an area of development based on "Why benefit now when you can benefit more in the future".
More is the reason of unhappiness.
More is why I cannot reach new heights.
More is why I procrastinate.
More is the killer.
It's hindering me and I realise it's a problem. It's problem because I have a constant need for perfecting myself. The very idea in itself is paradoxical.
I have more books than I can accommodate. There's one particular book I've procrastinated for 13 years years since I was 12. I've wanted my mind to be at a particular stage of development before I started this journey. I stand here and I say no more.
It's Saturday and I'm starting with the sealed nectar, the biography of Muhammed (saw). After this I have 58 books to work through. You can follow my progress over at: https://www.goodreads.com/review/list/25554860-soulseek?shelf=%23ALL%23
I also have a box of vintage and rare chocolate from Hotel Chocolat to work through. I kid you not. This stuff is the crack of Chocolates.
Procrastination. No more. I'm taking control.
