For as long as I can remember I've had this problem with savouring an opportunity, an experience and a moment. The problem is before that process begins. I call it perfecting procrastination.
It works like this. I have a written rule about zero days. Zero days are days where that I don't progress, develop, learn or better myself in one way another. Even if it's just a mere 10 press ups. Slow progress is still progress. I'm not allowed a zero day, despite the circumstances. My perspective and the way I look at the world changes as my understanding progresses.
My problem is that I will stop an area of development based on "Why benefit now when you can benefit more in the future".
More is the reason of unhappiness.
More is why I cannot reach new heights.
More is why I procrastinate.
More is the killer.
It's hindering me and I realise it's a problem. It's problem because I have a constant need for perfecting myself. The very idea in itself is paradoxical.
I have more books than I can accommodate. There's one particular book I've procrastinated for 13 years years since I was 12. I've wanted my mind to be at a particular stage of development before I started this journey. I stand here and I say no more.
Procrastination. No more. I'm taking control.
It works like this. I have a written rule about zero days. Zero days are days where that I don't progress, develop, learn or better myself in one way another. Even if it's just a mere 10 press ups. Slow progress is still progress. I'm not allowed a zero day, despite the circumstances. My perspective and the way I look at the world changes as my understanding progresses.
My problem is that I will stop an area of development based on "Why benefit now when you can benefit more in the future".
More is the reason of unhappiness.
More is why I cannot reach new heights.
More is why I procrastinate.
More is the killer.
It's hindering me and I realise it's a problem. It's problem because I have a constant need for perfecting myself. The very idea in itself is paradoxical.
I have more books than I can accommodate. There's one particular book I've procrastinated for 13 years years since I was 12. I've wanted my mind to be at a particular stage of development before I started this journey. I stand here and I say no more.
It's Saturday and I'm starting with the sealed nectar, the biography of Muhammed (saw). After this I have 58 books to work through. You can follow my progress over at: https://www.goodreads.com/review/list/25554860-soulseek?shelf=%23ALL%23
I also have a box of vintage and rare chocolate from Hotel Chocolat to work through. I kid you not. This stuff is the crack of Chocolates.
Procrastination. No more. I'm taking control.
Salam SoulSeek,
ReplyDeleteI just recently discovered your blog and spent days catching up on all your posts over the years. I find your blog to be very inspiring and I have taken much of what you say under advisement in my own life :) You're some years younger than me, but I can absolutely say that you are mature and wise beyond your years, mashAllah.
I was disappointed when I got caught up on your blog and realised that your posts tapered off, as I selfishly felt sad that I would no longer benefit from your insightful and honest reflections. Imagine my delight when I discovered you added a new post :) I just had to let you know that your blog is helpful to a lot of us, so please do write as often as you have time for...
And by the way, there is a known relationship in the psychological research between procrastination and perfectionism, so it really doesn't surprise me that you've been dealing with that problem yourself.
Hope you had a productive read and a productive session of working your way through those chocolates.
Salam,
Green Tea
Walaikum Salaam Warahmatullah,
DeleteThis means a great deal to me. Thank you for taking your time to share your thoughts.
I second that!
ReplyDeleteGlad to see you on here again Soul Seek. :) Am I to assume we shall see you again in six months? lol i kidd.
Hope you are well.
Salams.
Jazakallah Khayr. The breaks are generally an indicator of what's going on.
ReplyDeleteSalam...first time reading your blogs I found it inspired me a bit..and make me want to explore your blog more( anyway I dont finish reading your blog yet but I will)..
ReplyDeleteSo keep updating because im sure theres a lot readers waiting for your new updates
Maybe there were not commenting as there were silent readers..
Anyway, where are you from?... Im from malaysia..keep updating ok..:-D
Walaikum Salaam,
DeleteWelcome and I'm from the UK :)
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