I've been here almost every day trying to write since my last entry on the 24th. I've wrote a few thousand words in drafts but it's all over the place. It's not happening at all.
Since that feeling. I did all those things I talked of and it did me good. Thank you all for your support. And Jasmine was right. I was starting to show signs of stress.
However, I feel seriously weak. Physically, mentally and spiritually.
Physically - I've ruptured a bone in my body. I can no longer compete in lifting. Training was my biggest outlet. It's no longer happening. From being one of the strongest national lifters, I'm now almost useless. Can I get an Irony overload? Hah. I'm currently in physio and I was told it would take a few months to see some progress.
Mentally and spiritually - It's just gone. Complete lack of energy. Feel really lethargic. Salah was always there to take a break from discomfort. It was relaxing. Khushu has slowly started to distance itself. All the other activities feel like a chore. You know crap's hit the fan when it gets to this stage.
I've never been like this before. Disorientated. Unfulfilled. Crap. That's how I feel. It seems that life, that was once going into over drive with goodness and happiness is now on hitting empty.
I need to get writing. It's the best outlet at my disposal it seems. A note to myself: Big changes need to happen.
Motivation where are you? ARGH.
Slightly O/T but I had to drop a few thoughts on Egypt. Firstly, way to go Google and Twitter, props on bypassing the firewall. Secondly, Why is America and the west so, SO afraid? Thirdly, an epic set of pictures in Egypt.
A final note, Muslim's are starting to come to the realisation that change can actually happen. Change for Islam. Exciting times are ahead of us Insha'Allah.
p.s I want to thank you all for your comments. They've been keeping me ticking over, each and everyone. Hi5 to all my g's!
Since that feeling. I did all those things I talked of and it did me good. Thank you all for your support. And Jasmine was right. I was starting to show signs of stress.
However, I feel seriously weak. Physically, mentally and spiritually.
Physically - I've ruptured a bone in my body. I can no longer compete in lifting. Training was my biggest outlet. It's no longer happening. From being one of the strongest national lifters, I'm now almost useless. Can I get an Irony overload? Hah. I'm currently in physio and I was told it would take a few months to see some progress.
Mentally and spiritually - It's just gone. Complete lack of energy. Feel really lethargic. Salah was always there to take a break from discomfort. It was relaxing. Khushu has slowly started to distance itself. All the other activities feel like a chore. You know crap's hit the fan when it gets to this stage.
I've never been like this before. Disorientated. Unfulfilled. Crap. That's how I feel. It seems that life, that was once going into over drive with goodness and happiness is now on hitting empty.
I need to get writing. It's the best outlet at my disposal it seems. A note to myself: Big changes need to happen.
Motivation where are you? ARGH.
Slightly O/T but I had to drop a few thoughts on Egypt. Firstly, way to go Google and Twitter, props on bypassing the firewall. Secondly, Why is America and the west so, SO afraid? Thirdly, an epic set of pictures in Egypt.
A final note, Muslim's are starting to come to the realisation that change can actually happen. Change for Islam. Exciting times are ahead of us Insha'Allah.
p.s I want to thank you all for your comments. They've been keeping me ticking over, each and everyone. Hi5 to all my g's!
